It’s so obvious. And somehow it took forever to really click in my brain (denial maybe?)
The reason that I always end up with losers or abusive jerks.
Good guys don’t settle down with porn chicks.
And no amount of donating to charity, volunteering, or going to church is ever going to change that.
I haven’t sincerely bothered with dating in a couple of years. That part of my life is finished. Anybody worth dating is going to think I’m gross.
And I can’t even blame them for it.
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August 16, 2017 at 6:23 am
I don’t know, maybe I’m too positive, but I believe there is someone out there for everyone, someone who is the right person, who will love you unconditionally. Your past as a porn star is by no means a negative, and you are beautiful! Inside and out! I have no doubt there is a good guy…the right guy, out there somewhere.
Don’t lose hope!
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August 17, 2017 at 5:36 pm
Yep, my friend. As you stated in a recent post, you are obviously in a depressed mood right now. All encompassing negative thoughts about the present and the future. Been there done that, it’s rough. Sometimes the only thing that got me though the day was the knowledge that I was indeed depressed. That the intensely negative thoughts and emotions about everything I had did not reflect reality, but were creations of my depressed brain.
You are obviously a hard working, down to earth, smart gal with quite a bit of selfknowledge, trying to build a good life for yourself and your son. I admire your strength. But then you do what you have to do., and you are dong it!
I think you write just fine! I read all your posts and I really didn’t find any major grammatical errors. Not that I am an English college professor, but still…
Hang in there!
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August 22, 2017 at 4:30 pm
I’m sorry for that, but you are a wonderful person, keep trust in yourself.
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August 29, 2017 at 1:22 am
It sounds like you are open about your past in relationships. Out of curiosity, at what point do you feel comfortable to talk about it? It sounds like the results aren’t good…what about simply not disclosing the fact that you did porn?
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September 10, 2017 at 9:50 pm
I’ve never once disclosed that I’ve done porn. I never had to. In this Google happy society people have always discovered it themselves (usually not long after the initial “hellos”)
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